I know I’ve already written numerous times about cold weather and my inability to function in it but the seasonal depression be hittin’ different this winter.

As of late, my motivation to get out of bed has dwindled. Partly because it’s so freakin’ cold in my apartment that leaving the comfort of my electric blanket just to have my knuckles bleed from the wind chill (and my refusal to use lotion) seems less than appealing. School has started up again and I know what is surely to come with it. Stress and deadlines. The fact that it took me well over an hour to do an assignment that should have only taken ten minutes doesn’t put my mind at ease.

Plus, Mercury keeps pissing right outside the litter box. He still uses the litter box. He poops there, he pees there… and then he saves a little bit for a second pee just outside the box. I guess I should be thankful that he’s not doing it any beyond the confines of the bathroom (so far) and the internet says he’s not doing it out of spite because cats don’t function that way. It’s suggested that I take him to the vet but I don’t think I’ve recovered from the last time I took him on a car ride… or the time before that.

Also I got attacked by a nap today while I was doing homework and accidentally slept an hour in my contacts so when I woke up the lenses were plastered to my eyeball. I’ll persist, but don’t mind me if I blink extra hard as an attempt to get moisture to my parched retinas.

And yet, I’ve never been better.

I’ve gotten back into exercising. I’ve been waking up early and going to bed at a reasonable time (most nights). I even started going to weekly RuPaul Drag Race viewings. If that’s not the sign of a well-rounded human being, I don’t know what is.

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Lesson: One day at a time.

I fine y’all, really. I know I just wrote a whole post about my mental blunders but I’ll be ok. I’m surrounded by cool friends and stimulating work (even if my brain isn’t always ready to engage). i’m just sharing how I’m feeling and it’s ok not to be ok sometimes. (Ok, wow. What is this? A John Green novel?)

Point is, the sun will rise again.